which means there's only 2.5 more days i have to get through until sundaaay...

i'm back in hamilton now, obviously, helping mum pack up and clean the house etc. glad to see that my cat hasn't gotten fatter since last time i saw her.. actually she kinda reminds me of some people, who only show up when they want something (her dinner) and then you don't see them for the rest of the day..

anyway. my stuff is all packed up, just helping mum with her stuff and the housecleaning now. i've just been home everyday, since josh is working and i have no friends ): well on tuesday i went to josh's and then his cousin came and we towned. man some new stuff happened here. took some photos to show celine, and then josh had his restricted test in the afternoon. he passed! no surprises there, but it was still exciting. anyway josh drove his mum home, then we went to my place, and we hung around until we decided to drive to jae's and then had some KFC. then we dropped jae back home and josh took me took the lake, where he tried to teach me how to skip rocks, and i failed miserably. but it was still a nice romantic little date we had (:

yesterday josh came around again about 6.30 and he let me drive to andrei's house HAHA. after seeing his massive computer stuff we went to visit nico and his doggy, and it was so weird cuz when the dog was little he was brown, and now he's white! anyway. me, nico and josh drove to countdown and bought some snacks (obviously) and then after hanging out for a while josh drove me home.

i dont think im seeing him again today. but its okay i have to start getting used to NOT seeing him everyday anyway. i wont be seeing him in 7 weeks GASP. that will be the longest time we're not gonna see each other.. i hope i survive. ohwell im too excited for this holiday anyway, maybe he'll miss me more than i miss him hehe x


well tomorrow there's an office party thing going on and then this november birthday party that the indonesian community hold every year so it should be fun.. and food should be plentiful (Y) yeahhhh.

as of 11.30 this sunday, which is 6 hours from when i'm typing right now, i will only have exactly one week before i board the plane to indonesia.

excited? hells yeahs.

been talking to friends and co-workers about shopping in china, and snowing there, and i got more and more excited with every conversation, all pumped up and ready to go.

at the moment the whole apartment is packed up, me and josh's stuff all ready to go. he's not going overseas with me obviously (i wish), but he is going back down to hamilton and working there for the holidays. so yeah, a lot of cleaning and packing up happening lately. we're catching the 8 o'clock bus to hamilton tomorow (actually more like 3 hours from now) so pretty much next week i'll be alone at home with nothing to do. except talking to my (fat) cat.


anyway, i bought a pink panasonic lumix touch-screen camera, which i am very happy to own despise it not being an DSLR. not rich enough for one of those i suppose. i don't care, always wanted a pink camera and now i have one. and mr josh is gonna pay me back the money i spent on it, because apparently it is now my 19th birthday present (Y)



blog ya later.

soooooo. will be going on a little holiday trip these holidays..

leaving the morning of 27 november. a day before my 19th lol. then apparently going to singapore-HK, then HK-china.. pretty damn excited, not gonna lie. havent been back in indo in 3 years, also haven't been to HK and china. photos all around.

and i've just won a little digital camera, perfect timing (: was gonna buy one but not anymore.. truly can't wait.

also i've been accepted at AUT.. computer designs next year. need to sort out student loan so i'll have munny to live on. HAHA. and mr joshy has been accepted there too.. YAY we're in same class?! haha that'll be super fun. although i probably will end up not learning much with him distracting..

my shoeezzelsz.

hopefully there will be part 2, part 3 etc, it all depends on the available munny (:

well, being in a relationship for 1 year, 10 months and 4 days as of right now, i should probably vote for 'not-single', right? because if i don't, then that means i'm in an unhappy relationship. but that's not true, so...

i've been thinking about this lately.. sometimes old memories come up. it's annoying, this memory thing us humans have. how sometimes thoughts about old stuff suddenly spring back up, so not helping anyone. everyone's moved on, so obviously there's no reason to think about stuff, so i don't. but i don't fully control my thoughts all the time, and some unwanted stuff gets thinked about now and then anyway.

haha this doesn't even make sense. i have to admit, and the boyfriend knows this, don't worry, that i miss the good ol' single days. those days when you have a massive crush on some boy and you dedicate your every waking second finding out if the feeling's mutual. it was always fun and childish, and now it doesn't happen to me anymore... at least with a secure relationship i know i'm not gonna get my heart broken again over silly stuff. but then that means if i get my heart broken this time, it would be over non-silly stuff, and wouldn't it hurt more... ?

scary.


not really worried about it, though. i'm so very happy with mr joshy and things are going great (: we're planning on going to the zoo next week for a casual date.. haha that word sounds weird and formal. but yes, i love him very much sometimes it scares me. cuz, you know, of that saying. the power of the relationship lies with whomever cares the least. it's sad, but definitely true. the one who cares more will be hurt more if things go bad.


anyway, to less deep stuff. had a fun time today.. went to newmarket, bought $10 heels, 2 $10 dresses and a $5 top. HA DE HA. and then went to have dinner with chris and josh, at nando's, then off for a game of pool. awesome stuff.


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mr joshy bought a webcam.. mostly so that we can talk and see celine properly on skype. and also so i can take pictures. HUAHAHA.

have not posed in a while.


anyway, not much has happened... it's been a lazy day.. lazy week.. more like lazy month. feeling very unmotivated etc, and doing stuff i'm not supposed to do and ignoring the stuff that should be done. i hope a non-lazy month will come up soon or i'm screwed.

oh, and we're looking for a new flattie.. hopefully josh's sis cuz that would be awesome. and not weird, like if we got some random person we dont even know.


might be going to indo etc the end of this year.. EXCITED! it means save EXTRA MUNNY ! means no shopping because i shall shop there !!



and i'll love you like i always do.

cheaters should go die.


no, thankfully, mr josh hasn't cheated on me. but shoji, this character in this popular japanese manga nana, did. and as i was reading it in bed alone last night, reading about him cheating on nana with some other bitch, i felt my anger rising and it was... surprising.

of course, everyone knows that cheating is bad. (hopefully). and even if you haven't been cheated on before, i bet it's not hard to imagine how much it will hurt if you do. and then i thought about it so much, and imagining what would happen if josh cheated on me, that it even went into my dream. i had some 6 restless hours of sleep with a nightmare, and it was about josh cheating on me with celine. (AHA.) and i woke up feeling mega depressed, which was not fun because i had to go to work and be cheerful and happy as a fronter of an ice cream shop.

the surprising part was, in the book... shoji had nana as his girlfriend, but at his workplace/uni he met this other girl who was totally his type, sachiko. they got close and she obviously liked him, but shoji never told her about nana. then one time when they were together, nana called, and sachiko found out. so she started crying, feeling sad and also guilty, and tried to run away. but shoji grabbed her and hugged her, and one thing led to one another and they... hooked up. but i wasn't that surprised or hurt. what hurt me the most was a few pages afterwards.. when shoji was just chilling at sachiko's apartment, playing around with her and holding her. it made me feel sick. and then i had a serious talk about cheaters with my flatmate.

we found out the reason why i felt that way. boys will be boys, and they'll always have these urges to go hump something. so if shoji had just slept with sachiko and then that's it, it wont be as bad. but he actually spent time with her and liked her, and so it's really sad. i'm sure i don't make sense to most of you, but me and my flatmate agreed on this. it's so much sadder when you find out your boy/girlfriend actually is in love with someone else, instead of just hooking up with some other person. you might think, initially, them having sex with someone else is the worst thing they can do, but it's not. when you think about it, it hurts so much more if they didn't hook up, but actually fell in love with someone else, because you know then that it's real. its not just some physical lust thing taking over, but it's their heart belonging to someone else now.


haha, look at me. going on and on about this so passionately when i haven't even experienced it yet. i'm kinda curious as to what would happen if i get cheated on... hmmm.

well, i guess i still love getting new skins and changing the template around. there's this undescribable satisfying feeling i get whenever i change skins and i customize a few things around to be exactly what i want, and then i check my blog and it looks exactly the way i want it to. god, i didn't even make sense just then.

fun day at work today - lovely smiley got each of us an easter bunny nose complete with the fluffy ears. i shall miss him when he's gone. and i hope the new guy sticks around, he had a bad day today ): but i got a free milkshake. hee-haa.

and also the apartment manager put a cadbury easter bunny in each of our mailboxes. I LOVE THIS FREE CHOCOLATE DAY. and i'm also excited because mr josh is coming back in 2 days and his sister will be staying with us for a week. and i'm planning to go shopping with her on tuesday. excited? yes.

moving up here has had some of its scary moments, but is it worth it? again, yes.


oh, forgot something that happened yesterday. i was just at my work, scooping gelato into cups when suddenly the power went out. freaky stuff. worse, the display freezers the ice creams were on died as well so we had to do some emergency move-gelatos-to-back-freezer. also customers could only pay with cash for awhile. and then we closed. since it was only 8 me and vanessa decided to have a little thai food in some dodgy foodcourt. $10 marinated spicy beef on a hot plate? yes.



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