cause now i'm that bitch you'll never get to
cant get what you want, so your acting like a punk
you were too fly then, so fly away now
now i'm that bitch, and your just a clown
now i'm that bitch livvi franc

so my life at the mo is nowhere as bad as O8O8O9, obviously. but there are still some shits pissing me off. some of them other people's faults, some of them mine, whatever.

i'll make a freaking list.

1. the stupid dance on saturday.
OMG. your not fucking serious. us girls came there for the boys, because we think that you've been practising with us so hard for like 3 full terms. we have done the stupid dance. in our own assembly, and it was sad that the boys couldnt come and dance it with us.

i had my own plans on that day, too. but because we wrongly thought that you boys would want us to do the dance, so that your efforts didnt go to nothing, we decided to show it on that day. WE DID IT FOR YOU. if i knew that you were just gonna ditch us like that, i wouldnt even have bothered coming. i came all the way there FOR YOU GUYS and instead of fucking appreciating it, you decided to do the ultimate gentleman thing and fucking ditched us. WTF !?

and okay, so it was all done and over, blabla, we messed it up and fully embarassed ourselves. i was ready to let it go, i was mad but ohwell, its over now. but then i find out today that you said 'are you mad because we didnt do the dance with you or are you mad coz you messed up and embarassed yourselves?' or something like that. that got me really mad, omg. HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT !? whose fucking fault was it anyway that we got embarassed!! jesus christ.

so i went all the way there, on the neverending stupid driveway, being checked out by the stupid cows, all just so i can embarass the hell out of myself and my friends, and instead of saying sorry, your there loling at our faces.

thanks, g.

2. i suck.
ive always known i do. but not this much. im stupid and selfish and i dont think about others and im way too childish and im bitchy and mean and stupid. I HATE ME. i'll just shut up next time coz i dont even know whats wrong and right. i deserve no one.

3. $$$less
since last holidays, i worked the whole holiday and got $65O. ive somehow spent $35O in like less than 1O weeks, and i didnt actually buy anything anything. like, i planned to get my own camera or iPod or something. just $35O gone, not sure where it went, just gone. and sure, im working again these hols, but only for 4 days, and sheesh, i really need to learn how to save $.

and im planning to take out another $1OO for the auckland trip this saturday. 0= !!!!!
what i can remember i bought.
- $2O mascara+eyeliner
- $1O eyemakeup remover
- $2O vodafone credit
- $2O noodle canteen
- $2O KFC
- $2O McD's
- $1O pasta bella
- $1O movies
- $25 buckled flats
- $15O stupid ball shit
- $2O random food

and the remaining $25 ? no idea.
shiiit, i spent like $1OO on food? hahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

4. schoo/uni ?
i dont wanna go to uni next year. HELL NO. like im even ready. can anyone right now even imagine me universitying ?!?! like seriously. i'll probably get lost. or get distracted. (hotboys everywhereeee). and dont do assignments. or something.

but my mother doesnt understand. she knows im still childish/immature now, and she thinks by making me go to uni it'll fix all these problems. HAHAHA.

5. auckland.
it was quite a miracle how mother gave me permission to auckland without any arguments. it went a little something like this.

M= hey, we're planning to visit your dad in auckland in the hols
K= oh yeah, what day? coz ive got work etc.
M= im thinking like monday first week? coz you have job on wednesday, right ?
K= (having a sudden brill idea, the best time ever to bring up the auckland subject) well if its monday its good then. coz you see, my friends are asking me to auckland on saturday.
M= which saturday? (still normal tone)
K= um, this one. at the end of this week.
M= oh. are you staying the night?
K= (WTF. I CAN !?!??! IM ALLOWED !??!?! SHES EVEN CONSIDERING THAT POSSIBILITY?!?!?) um, no. just like, a day in Queen St or something. you know, shop around. then we go back at night.
M= oh. well, that should be okay. so you'll go back there to your dad on monday and stay the night until tuesday? or i dont know.
K= (still in shock mode). okay.

shit, my mother is really scary sometimes. i was expecting at least like 7 hours of arguing, screaming and yelling. it is, after all, auckland, with my bitches.

okay, so this last entry in the list isnt something that pissed me off. but it was just so goddam amazing i cant not put it in there.