what's so funny, you ask ?

life is.

i've just kinda realised that now. its just so goddam laughable. its just that i find it kinda hard to blog about personal stuff these days. compared to last month, when it was so easy to just blog about all the shit things in my life coz there were millions of them. everyday there'll be some new stuff to talk about, new things 'people' did, dramaing everywhere and coming to school with an 'omgg' look on your face.

things used to be so unpredictable, and thats probably why it was so exciting. its the thrill. the thrill of not knowing what people would do, etcetera. well i still get that now, but from different people, and for different thrilling reasons. ( i dont think im making sense ). anyway. im not saying i miss those days, or even regret that those days are gone. im just saying, its funny how different things are now.

i feel quite grown up (ish) abit, somehow. those days with me grinning stupidly over some stupid crush is over. for the time being. its funny how before, the stories are almost always about i like this guy and he does this and that and this and that and we spend days figuring out if the things he does means anything. and its not like that anymore ! hahaha and maybe sometimes change is good.

its so stupid going over the would've should've and could'ves. SO WHAT. its over anyway. whatever 've happened, would never happen coz it DIDNT. and we passed that. MOVING ON. maybe its good to like evaluate yourselves, figure out things you didnt do, and maybe having little regrets, etc. but thats about all you can do. it has happened and it would never have happened a different way, coz no one can change what happened. maybe things would've been different if you did this, or that, or did things differently. OHWELL. maybe things would be better. maybe not. but this is life. its a journey. i learnt a lesson, though. regrets are stupid. i'd try not to have too many of them in the future. JUST DO IT.

pheww, intense blogging muchh. josh, i stole your St John's College Peer Support Leader badge. HA HA.



plaaaaaans.
# BigBikkieDay #4 Ice Cream Day friday after school (today). participants = me, beetch, josh, ERIKA. thats E R I K A, you got that bitch.
# josh tutoring me some maths tomorrow. beetch joining in for a little while.
# dad visiting over from auckland. might stay over. that means he'll meet josh ? - -
# STUDY FOR MOCK EXAMS. happy days gee.
# next saturday 190909. go to josh's house, then watch Orphan, then back to his house. HA HA.
# HOLIDAAYYYYS. auckland babyy ! (Y)