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we've hit a wall .
Friday, October 30, 2009 @ 9:11:00 AM
maybe you wont like me for posting the 'problem' here, in my blog, but i dont know how else i can get all these shit out from my chest.
it still hurts. even now, the morning after, some1O long hours later.and i still dont understand what happened. i thought we were fine ? i thought we were both happy with the way things are. we WERE all good just the day before. even a couple hours before the argument thing. .. . . . . ?
love and lust . its scary to be thinking which one's more dominant. which one is stronger. im even freaked out to be confused with the two words. i never thought i had to come to this. but now i am. I THOUGHT WE WERE FINE. then in one stupid sentence i find out that while yes, i am fine, your apparently not.
i dont know what you hoped to get out of that argument. if there were any form of a threat type thing in there, its not gonna work. i've given you everything i can give you. if your not happy with it, then, thats your problem. no form of threat/anything/whatever can change it. not ready means not ready. the only time the 'not ready' will change is when i BECOME ready. before that its not gonna change at all.
i have a choice and so do you. i choose not to do some stuff. and you can choose what to do with that.
you can wait with me, or you can go find someone else who can give you what you want, right now.
im sorry. i really thought we were happy and okay with the way things are.
im sorry if your hurt too. not being a drama queen, but i think in this case im getting hurt way more than you . i was the one crying into my pillow all night, the one who couldnt sleep properly cuz my nose was unbreathable. and you STILL had to ask that last question .
i dont know what to think .
Labels: ahm.personal dramas
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keyne, nineteen years
old young.
currently living happily in
newzealand
i have two other halves, one is right here with me (mr joshy) ;
and the other lives in Paris, which explains my blogtheme (miss celine)
i like typing, the colour pink, shopping, texting, eating, make up, food, cute stuff, laughing, going out, dressing up.
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x. i also like high heels even though im 5'9"
x. fake eyelashes are the best invention
ever ;
x. i am
in love with mr josh, even after all this time (2 years, 6 months)
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