that dumb phrase is probably gonna be stuck with me for the rest of my life. everything just keeps like semi repeating itself.. its cool but creepy too =| like nowadays, everything i say, i end it with 'here we go again'.

anyway. it's more of my twin's problem, but i feel like im stuck in it, because i had like pretty much the same problem last year. like 89% samelility. so its creepy. CUZ WE'RE TOO TWINS. even real twins wouldnt be this twinny.


i could turn you loose,
but baby, what's the use?
i come back to you like automatik.

that song has been stuck in my head for this week. YAY.

life is semi wonderful. everything is almost perfect. i'm feeling like i wanna go to AUT, to get outta here. but part of me don't really want to either. so it's confusing. if you ask me, right now, what i wanna do when i grow up, what job would be perfect for me, i'd still give you the same answer i would've given you 1O years ago, i dont know.

things are more complicated now because of Josh. what uni i go to, where i live, etc, i have to take him into account. and he does the same for me. he really wants to go to AUT ; i kinda wanna go there too. change of scenery, new people, would be more free, would cost more, etc. but isnt it all about experience? living budgetly might be a fun experience, instead of being rich and not having to think about tomorrow etc. it would teach us how to live independently. mum might not want me going to AUT. but if i really push it, she cant really make me stay. but i'm hoping to get a scholarship to go there, so there'll be no argument. but then i have to pay rent. AAAAAARRGGHHH. gimme back the good old days, when all i had to worry about was to quickly go home and do my colouring in homework.