do you know what i hate most?


1 stupid people. aka fakes, two-faced, etcetera. for example, if i dont like someone then i will most certainly not start a conversation with them. because talking to people i dont like make me get pissed off. and why would i make myself get annoyed voluntarily? if the said person talk to me first, then i will answer back because that's the polite thing to do. but then i'll try to get out of the convo asap. so i really dont understand those people who claim they 'really hate so-and-so' and bitch about so-and-so all day long, and then talk to them like they're the best of friends. W T F.

2 BITCHES. oh god, so many of them in this world. those stupid people who think they can get anyone they want. flirt around with everyone, get them all interested and then drop them. girls who are nice ONLY to boys and is a total bitch to the girls. who are you kidding ?! i also hate those sluts who brag about the boys they know. SO WHAT. omg you know and hang with like 39485 boys, omg, yay cool.

3 people who are just annoying. stupid people who don't know their place. i'm pretty sarcastic and i get pissed off easily by a person i dont like. and after awhile i'll get annoyed and start snapping off the other person, but the genius just wouldn't get it. oh, haha, keyne is so funny with her jokes. well guess what. they're not jokes. i'm trying to tell you as gently as possible that your being annoying, and you don't get it. SIGH.

4 people who are just unreasonable. not letting me do something for no reason. i dont get it! if there is a good reason why i can't do something, then say it. then i'll understand and accept, and even if i'm not happy at least i know there's a reason behind it. but saying i can't do something, and when i ask why you say 'just because i don't want you to', ?!???!?!! so my whole social life just depends on your mood? i can't do something i want because YOU don't want me to?

honestly, the lawnmower gets out of the house more than i do.

5 i dont like people who back out on plans. if it's been planned, then do it. what's the point of making plans when at the last minute they text with some dumb excuse why they're not coming or whatever. especially those people who don't show up 'because they dont feel like it'. respect others a little bit.



blah,blah,blah. the stress is getting to me. too many things to think about, way too many for a single brain to handle. so please take away the little annoying things in life i dont need at the moment.

17 days until 1-year-anniv (:



had an ave week. not too busy, not floating around, nothing to do, having fun either. went to the National Barbershop Champions on thursday. so missed out on a whole day of school, and sat in Founders Theatre watching hot singing guys all day long :D all good.


and josh came! made me mega happy. i asked him to come before, but then his mum said he already missed alot of school, so he cant. so i got sad. but in the thursday morning he called and said he can go anyway :D so smiles all day long. chilled with him the whole day, also with erika and celine and awhile with joseph. and robbie as well.

we sang at around 2 ish. didnt think it was that good. and of course, all of us knew there was noway our group was gonna win. so yeah we just watched some more, then at 3.30 we gapped to town, coz we can (: josh went to his dentist appointment around 4.15, so me and celine chilled around town (getting crazy drunk in k-mart) and went back to the theatres around 5.30


but guess what. our chorus group won fifth place out of 15 !!!! AMAZING. wtf. blind, crazy hearing-impaired judges.


anyway. nothing much happened for the rest of the week. then today celine came over and we kinda half did the poster and half watched youtube videos. but we finished the poster anyway, then rushed down to the warehouse to get her food for cultural week, and then drove after my mum to some pot-luck dinner at someone's house. yum food. had this yoghurt-y ice cream thing for the dessert, with some canned fruits. YUM.


so yeah. not that much to report.
(:

some habits of mine that i really should try and stop.


biting my nails. this is gross. it makes my nails all yuck and unattractive. but i really cant help it. even those 'yucky-tasting-nail-polish' doesnt work. i still bite them, especially when i'm bored or nervous.

procrastinating. not even sure how to spell this word. but i do this all the time. i am a true professional at doing this. if i apply to a university to study this course, they'll just take one look at me and hand me my PhD. or hire me as a lecturer. whatever. all i know is, no matter how big the project is, no matter how important, i still always, always end up doing it in the last second before it's due. tsk tsk tsk.

i get distracted. way too easily. 'ooh! shiny!' doesnt even begin to cover anything. if i walk somewhere and something itches, i will itch it, and when i'm done, i just turn to do something else. the original mission will be fully forgotten. facebook is the worst distractor. also this.

i think too much. i read into people's words and actions too deeply. they say one simple sentence; i turn to all the quotes and philosophies in the world to try to figure out the 'hidden meaning' behind that sentence. especially when it came to crushes. one 'suspicious' thing he says, next thing i know, i'm on some romance-advice website looking up articles like 'what men really thinks' or 'what men means when he says _' etc etc.

i get jealous. alot. everyones always ____er than me. and sometimes its true. but true or not, i should start loving and being grateful of what I have and those people don't. to make me feel better. like having a lovely boyfriend. having a pink phone i've always wanted. having a wall full of photos in my room. having a room. etc.

i worry about the future. i dont like change. im comfortable the way i am now. i'll live. but with change, who knows? it might be better. or it might be worse. you cant turn back time. but i've learned not to make the right decision every single time. cuz when you choose the wrong one, you'll learn something new, you learn your mistake. so you dont do a bigger, more serious one in the future. and that helps.

i dont listen in class. haha, this has always stuck by me. no matter how serious the class is, no matter what subject/scary teacher/important the lesson is, if i get bored once and my mind wanders off, i will never switch back to listening again. then it's decorating my diary time, or passing notes time, or texting secretly.

question = would you stay with someone who makes you miserable ?

food craving = a cold ice lemon tea. or a choc heaven blend from robert harriss.

general craving = money. preferably unlimited

quote = people dont accept 'the truth' unless 'the truth' is something they want to hear.

feeling = itchy. thirsty. worried.

missing = josh. gaby. sella. friends in indo...

wishing = i was shorter. and prettier.

i had a purple dress, and the colour matched josh's tie perfectly. so it was all exciting and fabulous. we even took a little trip down to the little jewellery shop next to our school, and i found a purple masquerade-thing with purple feathers. and some purple earrings. everything matched perfectly!! earrings $5, mask thing $18. soooo good (: was so excited and happy.

just the way you are.
- brunomars


am i childish? i think i'm kinda childish. or a lot childish. i'd like to think that i've grown up even a little bit since last year or whatever, and i've been looking at my friends' blogs and see that even their templates have grown up. so i decided "okay, no more pretty colours and drawings, i'll go and search a new grown up template with serious colours and theme." i ended up choosing this template. i was stuck between this and a grown-up one, with a nice, simple looking blog with 2 or 3 colours. and this one won.

i'll just make a list. if you know that your childish and you do some/all of the things i have in my list, please let me know. (:

1 i get bored easily.
2 i can't stay on the same place for ages without getting restless or whining.
3 i get distracted VERY easily.
4 an impulse buyer.
5 i like cartoons. no, not cool cartoons. like baby cartoons.
6 picture books are the best books ever (:
7 my thoughts are random as. you wont even know how i get to think some of the things i think about.
8 i say random things. RANDOM things.
9 i annoy people on purpose.
10 i do things BECAUSE ITS FUN and funny and because i can.
11 i say the lamest joke ever and laugh at it. by myself. while others look at me concernedly.
12 i still like pink.
13 happy endings do come true.

etc. i dont know anymore yet, ha.


currently: learning the piano for So Close - Jon McLaughlin. from that Enchanted movie. lalalalalove.
plans: going to Lina's at lunch. get my dress checked again. town after school with the boyfriend. back to school for a production i did not sign up for. yay. then im sitting my Learners on friday after school !!!!!!!! then the BALL on saturday. mike coming over around 5 to get his stolen thin Lizzy and spongebob DVDs.
i want to: change my fringe-style. grow shorter. or make everyone else taller. BE RICH. move out. buy that white-huge-pomeranian looking breed of dog.

yes, we do call it a 'ball' here in NZ. prom, ball, dance, whatever. IT IS STILL EXCITING.

and i am excited. i havent blogged in what, months? since march. and i do have to say, i miss it. i miss typing away in this little box, taking my frustrations out on some pretty-looking blog page. i miss fully bitching about some bitch, or typing happily over a stupid crush, or whatever. there's just that irreplaceable feeling you get when you're blogging, i guess.

there's a St John's College Ball on saturday. and i've got all my stuff sorted just over the weekend. the new dress, shoes, accessories. theme=carnival. im going all purple, and i just have a feeling it's gonna be different as from last year's ball. i dont know why. lets just see if anything interesting happens. i will enjoy it anyway, because we'll be taking photos and laughing and dancing in our tight dresses and high heels. and we wont let some dumb bitches ruin it for us.


a glimpse of what we get up to in Classics class.
*talking about AD and BC etc*
K= lol how would they know when to start counting at 1?
E= what if some random person decided "okay, next year can be year 1!" and then make a name for it.
K= lol yeah, like BC.. or something else..
E= it can be like 1 After Jesus, AJ!

K= yeah and then we'll be in the time 1 Before Jesus, B...
E= .....
K= ok i guess we cant use that one.
E= thats probably the reason they put 'Before Christ' and not 'Before Jesus'.


iloveyou.