first of all, i just want to say that Ryan Higa is great. i can only wish that he would ever visit NZ and even film here or something. and i can be one of the extras in the movie. who knows (: i've watched most of his videos and he's the funniest thing alive, all his videos are crack up :D


well yesterday was quite an adventure. got to school, immediately felt like going back home, and so wrote a note saying i have a university interview and therefore will be picked up at 11. after period 2 i went to student centre and signed out, then took the bus and surprised josh by showing up at his house (: stayed there until around 1 when we took the bus back to his school, and i went home. so yeah, not that exciting, but still 425093486 times more exciting than staying at school learning how to work out the cooling down rate of a human body or some shit we're learning in calculus at the moment.

planning my birthday party (: turning 18 next month exactly. cannot wait.

i have just had the best weekend in my life. i missed school on Friday and stayed home, packed and got ready for my fabulous fun-filled long weekend. josh's parents and sister came to pick me up around 11, and i went off with them to auckland, stopping first at huntly to buy breakfast. then we got to auckland and dropped off our stuff at the hotel. alexis had a pageant photoshoot so we went to the place at 1ish, about an hour early, but ohwell it was fun. she had her photoshoot and i saw all the other pageant contestants, most of them really pretty and all of them way shorter than me, even with mega heels. so that pissed me off a little bit, but i didnt really care. after the photoshoot we went to some mall where the girls got changed to their cocktail dresses and i walked around the shops, being bored. then we went to the Filipino event where the girls introduced themselves and etc. food was good (: then finally at around 9 we went to the bus station to pick up josh who had just gotten there by bus with chris...


so we went back to the hotel. went to get wendy's burgers at night, then some dunkin' donuts. went back to hotel, fell asleep in his arms (: super blissful. woke up next morning, got ready for armageddon. picked up chris and got dropped off at the place. stayed there until around 4, then we had to get dinner and go to the fiesta event, where they had a hip hop dancing competition, and the pageant girls show off their talents. so that was pretty cool, and then after that went back to hotel and fell asleep with josh holding me again. next day, same story, but left armageddon earlier (around 1.30) and had lunch, then me and josh watched paranormal activity 2 at the movies D: scariest shit ever. HOLY SHIT. then we went back to the hotel and got changed for the pageant event that night... had a mini dinner, then to the show.. it was really fun cuz we were yelling out alexis' name and screaming really loud HAHA. so that was finished and went back to hotel, slept happily again, next morning we got ready to sign out from the hotel, put stuff back into the car and went to Sylvia park. after lunch we looked around quickly then drove back home.


it may not sound that exciting but it was. especially the fact that i was with my baby the whole weekend (: best time ever. but now i feel really weird. i feel like crying all the time and there's this huge feeling of sadness, though i'm not sure where its from. i've had it since i got back home. and i miss Josh more than ever. is that even possible? i've had him for the whole weekend and instead of being satisfied, i want him even more?

josh= "i'm ticklish too much" hahahha you are such a cute noob. i love you baby (:

i want to move out next year and live in auckland.. i want to flat with josh & chris and other friends. i want to be accepted into AUT so i can get enough student allowance to be able to pay my rent weekly. i want to get a job, one thats not too stressful but pays enough, so i can pay for my food/shopping cost/transportation etc. i want mum to let me go without any hassle cuz its stressful enough already. i want to go with josh to labour weekend and come back monday. I WANT.

i guess then if you stop wanting, you stop living.


life is sometimes great.

blogging again after about a million years of non-blogging. i have to admit i miss blogging, though most of the time the feeling isn't strong enough to make me go all the way to my room, turn on the laptop and wait for it to load and go on the website and start typing. usually facebook distracts me from everything, but hey. blogging is pretty much the same.

answer.
question = what's the point of living if you already have everything? there's nothing to look forward to. nothing to be excited about. you're pretty much done in this life.

food craving = feeling full at the moment. but a chocolate shake would be fine. or a mint cookies ice cream.

general craving = josh. money. freedom.

quote = "i really want to have your babies" - inside joke.

feeling = full. worried about weekend.. broke.

missing = GABY SELLA kenny etc.

wishing = shorter, prettier, smarter, richer, you know. the usuals


there's the Great Labour Weekend happening this weekend and i've got about a billion plans on how to spend it, but most likely they aren't gonna happen. it's all up to mother, really. staying up with josh's family in auckland for 3 days might be abit much for her. but iunno. maybe miraculously it will work.

if not, then i'll probably bus to auckland with josh and chris either afterschool friday or saturday morning at 4.55am. naturally, i prefer the afterschool friday. waking up at 4 and walking to town is a bit much for me. so yeah, still not sure what to do.. as long as i am with josh.