cheaters should go die.


no, thankfully, mr josh hasn't cheated on me. but shoji, this character in this popular japanese manga nana, did. and as i was reading it in bed alone last night, reading about him cheating on nana with some other bitch, i felt my anger rising and it was... surprising.

of course, everyone knows that cheating is bad. (hopefully). and even if you haven't been cheated on before, i bet it's not hard to imagine how much it will hurt if you do. and then i thought about it so much, and imagining what would happen if josh cheated on me, that it even went into my dream. i had some 6 restless hours of sleep with a nightmare, and it was about josh cheating on me with celine. (AHA.) and i woke up feeling mega depressed, which was not fun because i had to go to work and be cheerful and happy as a fronter of an ice cream shop.

the surprising part was, in the book... shoji had nana as his girlfriend, but at his workplace/uni he met this other girl who was totally his type, sachiko. they got close and she obviously liked him, but shoji never told her about nana. then one time when they were together, nana called, and sachiko found out. so she started crying, feeling sad and also guilty, and tried to run away. but shoji grabbed her and hugged her, and one thing led to one another and they... hooked up. but i wasn't that surprised or hurt. what hurt me the most was a few pages afterwards.. when shoji was just chilling at sachiko's apartment, playing around with her and holding her. it made me feel sick. and then i had a serious talk about cheaters with my flatmate.

we found out the reason why i felt that way. boys will be boys, and they'll always have these urges to go hump something. so if shoji had just slept with sachiko and then that's it, it wont be as bad. but he actually spent time with her and liked her, and so it's really sad. i'm sure i don't make sense to most of you, but me and my flatmate agreed on this. it's so much sadder when you find out your boy/girlfriend actually is in love with someone else, instead of just hooking up with some other person. you might think, initially, them having sex with someone else is the worst thing they can do, but it's not. when you think about it, it hurts so much more if they didn't hook up, but actually fell in love with someone else, because you know then that it's real. its not just some physical lust thing taking over, but it's their heart belonging to someone else now.


haha, look at me. going on and on about this so passionately when i haven't even experienced it yet. i'm kinda curious as to what would happen if i get cheated on... hmmm.