my shoeezzelsz.

hopefully there will be part 2, part 3 etc, it all depends on the available munny (:

well, being in a relationship for 1 year, 10 months and 4 days as of right now, i should probably vote for 'not-single', right? because if i don't, then that means i'm in an unhappy relationship. but that's not true, so...

i've been thinking about this lately.. sometimes old memories come up. it's annoying, this memory thing us humans have. how sometimes thoughts about old stuff suddenly spring back up, so not helping anyone. everyone's moved on, so obviously there's no reason to think about stuff, so i don't. but i don't fully control my thoughts all the time, and some unwanted stuff gets thinked about now and then anyway.

haha this doesn't even make sense. i have to admit, and the boyfriend knows this, don't worry, that i miss the good ol' single days. those days when you have a massive crush on some boy and you dedicate your every waking second finding out if the feeling's mutual. it was always fun and childish, and now it doesn't happen to me anymore... at least with a secure relationship i know i'm not gonna get my heart broken again over silly stuff. but then that means if i get my heart broken this time, it would be over non-silly stuff, and wouldn't it hurt more... ?

scary.


not really worried about it, though. i'm so very happy with mr joshy and things are going great (: we're planning on going to the zoo next week for a casual date.. haha that word sounds weird and formal. but yes, i love him very much sometimes it scares me. cuz, you know, of that saying. the power of the relationship lies with whomever cares the least. it's sad, but definitely true. the one who cares more will be hurt more if things go bad.


anyway, to less deep stuff. had a fun time today.. went to newmarket, bought $10 heels, 2 $10 dresses and a $5 top. HA DE HA. and then went to have dinner with chris and josh, at nando's, then off for a game of pool. awesome stuff.


xx